Can I not love you for a while?

September 10, 2008 by Rayya

Hai anjing goblog (damn! menamai diri sendiri seperti itu membuat aku merasa seperti ular betina saja). Remember when you hugged me tight at your mom’s home? All of a sudden, thinking of that and the way that you did me right make me forget (that I was upset) and I can’t remember what you did.

I hate that I cant stay mad at you for too long. There s a feeling that make me don’t want to fight no more.

You completely know the power that you have. The only one makes me laugh. Its not fair, how you take advantage of the fact. That I love you beyond the reason why. And it just aint right. I want to know when will your kiss wont make me weak.

Anjing goblog, you’ll probably always have a spell on me

I just can’t let you go.
And I hate that I love you so.

I am not OK!

September 8, 2008 by Rayya

Semua lingkungan pasti berubah, tentu semua tahu itu. Dan pada akhirnya perubahan itu akan sangat hebat sehingga anda tidak bisa lagi menyesuaikan baik sikap maupun cara berpikir dan merasakan, apa pun upaya yang anda lakukan. Anda seperti terseret ke titik nol. Bahkan serasa mencium aroma kematian, seolah dipaksa berhadapan langsung dengan perubahan yang meruntuhkan.

Itu yang terjadi pada saya. Dan saya pernah memilih mati dengan memori usang tentang sakit hati.

I am not OK, yes I am. Still not OK hingga saat ini. Dan dalam kesakitan ini saya harus mengambil tindakan untuk menciptakan masa depan sendiri dengan membuat perubahan revolusioner sendiri, meskipun itu berarti membuang kesuksesan masa lalu dan saat ini.

Hari Kamis ini saya ada janji dengan pisau bedah. Time (and knife) may heal me …

managing in time of a GREAT change

September 4, 2008 by Rayya
Everytime I cannot rest
Everywhere seems uncomplete
Not be able to stand up
But I still have to search for the better part of me
The part that now a slave of anger
Hanging tight on my chest
Breaking down the strength in me
And I’m going down
Where nobody can’t found
And I’m starting to leave the ground
With no one around

Lord, this is beyond my comprehension

September 4, 2008 by Rayya

Why .. ?
Mengapa emak harus ikut menderita karena ulah dan bebanku?

the pleasure of a devil’s touch

September 2, 2008 by Rayya

I am in love with a devil
I enjoy being hurt by him
Addicted to his touch
Pleased by his reign

I know no other way

rebellious mind

September 1, 2008 by Rayya

1 man
25 still in the number
6 months of waiting

i am stupid

good girl gone bad

August 27, 2008 by Rayya

that’s me

beautiful

August 12, 2008 by Rayya

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, I saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I’m so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can’t bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can’t bring me down

So don’t you bring me down today
To all your friends, you’re delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That’s the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can’t bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can’t bring you down
Don’t you bring me down today…

No matter what we do
No matter what they say
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won’t stay
And everywhere we go
The sun won’t always shine
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

’cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won’t bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can’t bring us down

Don’t you bring me down today

Hello world!

August 4, 2008 by Rayya

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